Tuesday, December 05, 2006
it's another ordinary day today. i feel like such a crap. i tink im practically wasting hell lot of time doin nothing everyday. i feel like my future is a bunch of mess and i seriously cant see e bright future ahead of me. x) i need a breather. i need a shoulder. im feelin lonely when everyone else is attached ard me. i sometimes wonder.. does tt matter? oh well, i guess im such a loser.
talked to brooks online yesterday. he mentioned abt, " why shld ppl stead?" replied.. "cos they dont wna lose their "good friend" to someone else and to hold them by their side all e time." doesnt it sound so true.. my conscious tingled upon seein tt. however, i guess it's much more to tt. to be together means to be in love with e person. if u cant commit urself to him/her, i believe tt aint love. although u are good friends but tt may be jus in e terms of friends and nth else.
aiya.. i tink love is contradicting laa.
i cant help but STILL miss you.
mummy went to pray jus now. then gt this amulet for all of us. from wad she said, im kinda relieved tt i didnt offer to accompany her over. he was so ... accurate la. this kinda thing is not really superstitious jus better to be safe than sorry bahs. alright, so he said i'm hot tempered by nature. i mixed with bad company which results in me wanting to be e "big sister" ? [ which i dont really understand ] he added, "she even dared to talk back and bicker with u all ( parents )" oh man.. guilty conscious =/ okok. i admit. but neither do i wish tt to happen either. they sometimes jus dont, they jus dont understand what im goin through, wad im feeling. there's no one i can turn to. in fact, i tink i've gt no friends..
;; right from the beginning
