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2007-02-20T07:27:00.000-08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR PEOPLE!
its been quite long since i last updated.
its already e third day of new year.
AND!
e best thing is, i feel sick on NEW YEAR's EVE!
awwws. tt's e worse thing tt can ever happen.
LUCKILY!
i didnt feel so bad on e next day though.

as expected, everyone were like" how's ur results"
haas. good thing. i gt nice replys!
"tourism's a GOOD choice" weee's!
at least i've been rooted for. not too bad there.

OH YA!
i've gt a new EYE CANDY!
is he MARCUS? or MICHAEL?
sa lao gou cldnt pronouce his name? or had i gt it wrongly?
LOL.
he's like so TALL. alright. everyone to me is tall. *shhh!
he's DUPER CUTE. innocent kinda handsome.
awws. even co and mei agreed! LOL!
played black jack with him twice in a row. FUN!
he's heading to SA if im not wrong.
eeews. NICE UNIFORM!
now..
i've gotta wait for another year, till next year's CNY
before i can see him again ! OMG.
when we saw him coming again tonight,
co and i were like, "eh! eh! eh! tt handsome guy! omgg!"
and there we go, giggling like some hua chi. HAHA!

talking abt blackjack!
MUAHAHAS!
i won 72 bucks overall! omg! (=
12 more days to gamble. if there's even ppl to play.

anyways. went over derek's hse with zhiru this morning.
TALL! LOW MACHO VOICE! hahhas!
his look didnt realie changed tt much.
but yeaa. he's handsome =)
had fun though there's like awkward times when there
were silence between us. LOL
really glad to have these primary sch friends still keepin
in contact.
i guess it aint easy doing so.
1o years later if ever im gna get married.
im sure they'll be there tooo !
it'd be sooo GREAT! =))
HAHA! im tinking TOO MUCH!

MR HANDSOMEE! LALA/AS!

2007-02-11T07:07:00.000-08:00

okaee. i seriously heaved a sigh of relief on
receiving my result slip. though it may not
be superb at all, im satisfied.
now i jus wish to go into e tourism management
in temasek poly!
EVERYONE IS SCOLDING ME CRASIE!
say why go till so far. lols.
well well, shall jus wait to be posted.

im duper happy tt i got A1 for sci. which means
dropping pure isnt a bad choice.
i passed ENGLISH with a B4! miss gan is proud
of me! (=
and eventually, i passed AMATHS! C6 !
hahhas! mrs john laughed. *heartwarming!

thinkin back on e past,on how much i hated being posted
to this school..
but now, i actually am gna miss e life there.
r/s between e friends aint fantastic at all, however,
i guess its those ups and downs tt made ppl realise
e importance of having someone as ur confidante.

ahhh! im gettin emotional ..
i wna get to poly asap, to start a new life, then again,
on hind side, im afraid of e life there.
with e ppl getting more complicated, im sure
its not gna be easy getting ard. =/
i dont noe! mayb im jus scaring myself!

okokae, cny's round e corner! i've yet to finish
doing my shopping! shopping tmr with my
besties again! weee's!

off to chat! running tmr morning! (=

2007-02-08T08:18:00.000-08:00

oh my god! in like 9hours 15 mins e results will be
ANNOUNCED! THE O LEVEL RESULTS!
i can only say im freaking nervous now.
i dont even noe wad to tink of. positive/negative?
everyone have been telling me i can make it.
there wont be a prob..
BUT!
ahh! nobody knows whats gna happen until e
piece of paper comes into my hand!
mummy ask what do i tink e results will be like.
i gave her a look.
she replied sayin i shld be prepared be it good/bad.
yes, i know i shld be doing jus tt.
BUT!
ahh. i really dont noe whats gna happen shld anythin
bad happen tmr.

PRAYIN HARD I"LL PASS ENG! EVEN WITH A C6!

2007-01-23T06:06:00.000-08:00

haas! i bet i looked retard this morning in e bus!
but i cldnt help as those ppl looked stupid..
but actualie im one of them! haas!
okokaee. this is how it goes~
there's a stop before e interchange at yck mrt station
and usually, alot ppl wld get down there.
however! god knows wad's up with all e kiasu
singaporeans today.. they've all turn to become so
lazy and relyin on ppl. nobody wans to press e bell!
as a result.. e bus didnt stop! some even tot e bus
wld stop and tapped their ez-link card!
and when it didnt, LOL! they pressed e bell incessantly!
but i guess e bus uncle must be thinkin..
"hell with ya, who ask u dont press e bell." LOL!
it sped pass e traffic light without battling an eyelid!
haas. i cant help but giggle to myself.

BE FAST! BE INDEPENDENT!
PRESS E BELL! DONT BE LAZY! hahas!!

2007-01-22T07:04:00.000-08:00

OMG! I SAW DAREN! I SAW MY LOVE!
my eyes sparkled at e sight of him!
even mummy said ," qi shi ta ye ting yan dao de ma"
WOW! first time eh! she always criticise e guys i noe de!
lols. he's HANDSOME HANDSOME HANDSOME!
BUT so many ppl went to crowd ard him!
eeeeee! ask him for autographs, photos.. =/
he's going SEMBAWANG for his album thinggy i tink.
THEN! super diulians! YCKSS students! screaming
from e sec floor right up to e fourth floor!
"DAREN WO MEN AI NI!" gawwdd~
pls laa, xiao peng you.. DAREN IS MINE! MUAHAAS!
oh yaa. his eyes aint tt small! he's OMG! DASHING!
SHUAI DAO~~~~~~ *drools`! x)

anyway, bought a jeans from ebase and a top from OP
first time buying jeans! haas! im DUPER FAT.
args! i so much wanting to buy clothes. but when i
cldnt fit into tt XS again, omg! u dont noe how disappointed
and e feeling of goin for liposuction right away, i am feeling!!

IM GNA MEET DAREN NOW!

2007-01-11T22:29:00.000-08:00

awws. its raining agains.
i missed yoga and pump. x(
was abt to jump out of my bed
at 83o to mummy and ask why
didnt she wake me up when i saw
e dark misty sky.
yea and i kept my mouth shut. =/
lols.

but again, I WAS DAMN HAPPY!
DAREN'S INTO E FINALS!
oh yea oh yea oh yeaaaa`!
he had e highest score again! 40.5
initially i was devastated when i cldnt
get through e call at 1116. didnt realise
e phone line had ended. called only
twice.
oh mann. my heart ached terribly.
BUT LUCKILY!
MY DEAR BOY WENT IN NEVERTHELESS!
phew~
he's my super no.1!

2007-01-10T23:29:00.000-08:00

well, week after week passes in a flash.
very soon we'll be getting our results.
i cant imagine what e final outcome will be.
im starting to get real scared.
i really am.
no more repeats of e history.
no more outcomes like psle.
oh puulleeaaasee~!

on monday, went to help my dad out in his factory.
its me, him and another worker of his.
packing "or nee",yam. packed like 2oo plus
packets in total. arent i great. after tt even washed
our car together. had a great sense of satisfaction
today. its e first time im dealing with these things.
nv dared to touch. of cos it's edible. in fact it tastes
great but its oily to touch laa.
yea! and i overcomed tt! =)

as usual, had all e fitness classes.
and these few days its dad who came and pick
me up! how great uh.
im starting e dieting plan. whether it is gna
succeed, i dont dare to tink abt it.
hopefully 6 pounds will be shed of by cny.

e hot topic in my family now is "PI GU"
cos mummy keep lauging at my butt. -.-
sae so big. fat fat fat. then dad will help me by
pouting his mouth. he claims tt mum always
does tt. hahaas!
its a super sensitive word!

tp and np's open hse next thurs with syqinn dearr
next thurs. it's beeen ages since we last met up.
aww. how i miss her so.
still claim we're best frens! hey!
where have u been ! lols.

hmmm. sometimes things really turns out
the way u didnt expect it to be.
and it certainly wld bring a smile to e face.
minzhi pm me online last nite.
though we didnt sound like excited old
frens who havent met in ages and had
reconciled, its still nice being able to hear
from her.

i dont ask for much.
i jus need u here with me.

2007-01-07T06:44:00.000-08:00

I DREAMT OF DARREN! OMG! LOL!
its such a nice sweet dream tt made me dreading to
get out of bed this morning! it certainly made my day.
haahas! i cld still remember e wonderful parts vividly.
gosh.. i tink im crasie to even dream abt him la! hahas.
probably cos e nite before was reading his blogg. WOW.
typin e entry now made my enthusiasm rise again. *SCREAMS!
how i wish it cld come true uh. yea, how i wish~
i shall continue dreaming. LOL.

alrights. i cant hide from e fact anymore! im indeed FAT.
i cldnt stand e numbers tt i saw on e scale this morning.
i stared and i keep wondering. i exercise, my metabolic rate
shld increase. but wads this .. perhaps its really tt i am eating
way more than i am expanding. BUT it shldnt go to this extend
what! *CRYS BITTERLY!
i needa lose. i cant stand e fact tt i keep mentioning and always
go back on my words. damn!@#%$ i have to stop everyone from
sayin im putting on weight. i hate tt word.
DETERMINATION! PERSEVERANCE!
pls come back to me!
i used to be tt THIN. used to .. and i seriously wonders
how i did tt. ARGS!

2007-01-03T22:00:00.000-08:00

it hurts. it really does. i thought i've forgotten abt it. but now i realised i've not.
args. he's really one person who can make me so happy one moment and fall
right down e deep valley the next. no one else does. pretty lady.
perhaps it doesnt mean anything. or even if it does, wad has
it got to do with me eh. oh well.. im speechless now.

mummy said im mad these few days. haas. i've been doing
strange things. guess she's nv seen me acting so crasie before.
im not goin back to e unreasonable girl again. reflecting back,
i tink im one lucky girl, however, perhaps jus lackin of sth ..
yea. lacked of being loved. its sth i cant deny. though i've said tt
single life is great. but at times, loneliness jus haunts me down.

chinese new year's coming in abt 5 weeks time. time for new clothes,
new shoes, new bag, new everything! WONDERFUL. i cant wait for it
but e mouth watering goodies .. awws! they'll make me put on ugly
pounds.
NO NO!

i tried finding jobs these 2 weeks. but to no avail.
florist: do you noe flower arrangement? [speechless =/ ]
fox: call back in two weeks time
gingersnaps: actually had already, then they said their worker could
make it again
flash and surf: CAN. but.. $4.5. mummy said why work for them.
they are only makin use cos im young with no workin ex.

aiya . i'll end up not workin then. haas.

2006-12-30T07:05:00.000-08:00

in another day's time, we'll be counting down to 2oo7!

it's time to make new year resolutions. i tink i shld make it for real this
time and be determined to stay strong to it.

NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS - 2oo7

1. to lose weight before CNY!
2. no more junking.
3. control and no more bingeing.
4. to control my temper
5. to be more courageous
6. to train hard in yoga and pilates to become an instructor!
7. spend less
8. to smile more! =)
9. to learn to cook
10. to be more patient

hmm i tink tt shld be all for now. im gna fulfill all these! i'll make sure! =)
god dad commented why am i getting fatter. =/

had fun at ah ma's hse todae. played a game, formally known as UNO STACKO
but dont noe wad's e name of his game now. im so out of date! haas.
he's SO CUTE! we keep screaming ard. havin fun. i cant wait to see all my little
cousins grow up to become BIG SHUAI GES. handsome babies!

yepp! yoga tmr morning. 9o mins special! cool`. off to bed now! zzzz

2006-12-28T06:09:00.000-08:00

DARREN CHEN SHI WEI rawwks!
yea! "ni shi zui you wu tai mei li de!" wooohooo`! *applaudd! (=
all e way! if onliex he's gt slightly bigger eyes .. he'll be PERFECT!
he's gt e hair , e smile, e moves, e style, and MOST IMPORTANTLY!
e DIMPLES!! so mesmerizingg`~

went to e new NTUC at AMKHUB today. and it's TWICE in a day. haas
first in e morning with mummy and in e afternoon when dad returns.
it's DUPER BIG. jus like e replica of GIANT. but it's much cleaner and nicer
to walk ard. however, its soooo packed today. i know la, this is without sayin.
but can u imagine! ppl queuing, waiting for e shutters to open at 6 plus jus to be
e first 5oo ppl to get a free gift! SINGAPORENS~ LOL.
there are 3o counters in total. yet all of them are packed with breathing humans.
they ought to enlarge e space around e counters 'cos it's SO squeezy!
anyways, im lookin forward to e opening of e other stores! new shoppin destination!

CHARLES said i've BROAD SHOULDERS! awwws. i dont wna look big la.
muscles are gaining. im gaining wt instead of losing them. im eating more than
i should be. im getting lazier each day. i've gt no motivation to move. though i run
2.4 at least thrice a week. does yoga, pilates, pump but still, i consume more than i
can expand. SAVE ME! i needa lose wt before cny. if not i aint gna face my relatives
in this shape! i hate you, FAT!

2006-12-26T00:18:00.000-08:00

well, merrii'x christmas to all! (=
in 4more days, e year is coming to an end. how time flies.
its time to reflect on all e things tt had occurred throughout e yr.

had fun at hongkong e past week.
SUPRISING! guess who i saw. actually, i didnt see him. it's he who saw me
at e hongkong airport. its SHI HAO. was kinda shocked to read his msgg.
thought he knew where i was by reading my blog. e world is indeed small.
jus a few days trip can also meet up with someone i know. i guess if not for this
coincidental meet, we wldnt be talkin again. haas. its been ages since we last chat. =)
hongkong's ALOT of walking! its tiring plus with e weight add on by my lil bro!
he slept alot there. partly due to e nice cold weather i suppose. but he fell sick upon reaching
home!

i was camwhoring e last day in e bus towards airport!
even ahgong laughed seeing those pictures. he said why gt 2 diff ppl ah.

2006-12-18T08:11:00.000-08:00

its raining non stop.
non subsiding rain.
in this cold dark night,
i cant help but miss u
more than ever.
awws!
im feeling worse like nv before.

leavin for hk tmr. i'll miss you, hon! (:

donmyareone

2006-12-17T07:16:00.000-08:00

oh yea! tried e new launch of BODY PUMP 6o today! wow! u call tt shiok ? haas. e arms can die from e repeated slow... FAST! slow... FAST! after e continuous bicep curls, it was followed immediately by tricep dips! then push ups! OUCH! was screaming for help! haas. but i jus love abdominals workouts. all e way for my 6 packs! =p felt so great after 3 consecutive classes! First, PILATES. Then, BODY PUMP. LASTLY, ABT. woohooo`!
after i changed out of e workout attire, and was ready to leave, SHUQI, yea tt's my fren. she is workin as e receptionist at california. we attended some classes together as well. meanwhile, she is waiting for her results for a levels. she commented tt im CUTEeee! haha!

i realised i did not bring money out with me today! had only 6 bucks! haas. YES! one feels lost without cash near. x) e block opp. my hse had FLEA MARKET. somehow, the things they sell, cannot make it? its like seriously old laa. or mayb cos i jus walked past. hmm, anyways, i told mummy abt keli sayin tt her friends were selling old clothes online. then she asked if we could sell our crystals too.
me: YA HOR! why nv tot of tt before uh.. can ah, why not.
mummy: ya lor, u go ask la. then see how.
yes! i think most probably it wld be possible. ehh. e crystals are damn nice. but because of some feng shui thing, e shifu said we cant have those ard. and because of those few words of his, e countless crystal ornanments have been wrapped up and locked in e storeroom for like 3 yrs! so wasted..

it has been raining non-stop today. hopefully it doesnt rain in hongkong.ah yi lend me her winter clothing. i dont know, but it seemed abit too OVER. haas! i brought my jacket also laa. jus in case i look abit out there. LOL. i am so lookin forward to next week! once back from hongkong on friday, we'll be havin christmas party on saturday! e finger lickin food, e surprising presents, e colourful christmas decorations, e fun filled atmospheree! awww! FUN!

i hope you are enjoyin urself too. misses`-

2006-12-16T07:48:00.001-08:00

look! even SANTA'S acting funky! =))

2006-12-15T06:15:00.000-08:00

"pump it up! FASTER! slow~ doubles! 3,1!" haas! i've been hearing this like almost everyday! lols.tt's e sequence they have in body pump. actually i like e class. especially when Elizabeth is ard. she's e sexy pregnant instructor i mentioned before. dont noe why. but she makes me even more motivated to exert myself. (=

keli agreed to work with me after dec! she's quiting her job for me! wee's! are you, deariee? lols. i called up several hotels today. tinkin tt perhaps we could work as e frontdesk receptionist, in e cafes or sth. but i dont quite like their attitude laa. see how laa. mayb can go ... TOYS"R"US! i tink it'd be fun. shall see how it goes. jocelyn says she will join us after she finds out abt e interesting level in jc. haa! aiya, she's jus out to find her handsome young man.

arghs! dadd destroyed my mentality of dieting again! he made me sinned again! had sizzler for dinner. though i ordered salad bar. but as e name explains, its buffet style. i supposed i ate lots again. well~ well~ well~, now i seriously tink i shld work! dont bring money out so there's nth i cld buy. aint tt killing 2 birds with 1 stone. =) able to save money and shed those evillicious fats! eeeww!

i wonder what are u feeling now. most probably, ur games are more impt. aiya!

i love u laa! gawwd~!

2006-12-15T05:39:00.000-08:00

"pump it up! FASTER! slow~ doubles! 3,1!" haas! i've been hearing this like almost everyday! lols.tt's e sequence they have in body pump. actually i like e class. especially when Elizabeth is ard. she's e sexy pregnant instructor i mentioned before. dont noe why. but she makes me even more motivated to exert myself. (=

keli agreed to work with me after dec! she's quiting her job for me! wee's! are you, deariee? lols. i called up several hotels today. tinkin tt perhaps we could work as e frontdesk receptionist, in e cafes or sth. but i dont quite like their attitude laa. see how laa. mayb can go ... TOYS"R"US! i tink it'd be fun. shall see how it goes. jocelyn says she will join us after she finds out abt e interesting level in jc. haa! aiya, she's jus out to find her handsome young man.

arghs! dadd destroyed my mentality of dieting again! he made me sinned again! had sizzler for dinner. though i ordered salad bar. but as e name explains, its buffet style. i supposed i ate lots again. well~ well~ well~, now i seriously tink i shld work! dont bring money out so there's nth i cld buy. aint tt killing 2 birds with 1 stone. =) able to save money and shed those evillicious fats! eeeww!

i wonder what are u feeling now. most probably, ur games are more impt. aiya! i love u laa! x) gawwd~!

2006-12-13T07:40:00.001-08:00

2006-12-13T06:37:00.000-08:00

wee's! i jus lovee my primary sch bunch of friends! =) had a wonderfullicious day today!
met up with everyone at marche in suntec for lunch. then headed off to marina for movies
yeaa. we said we were gna watch movie at first. however there was this small internal arguement abt whether to watch or not to watch. cos e girls dont wna watch ERAGON. in e end, we still gave in and yeaa, we watched e show. i guess it aint a regret watchin it though. haas. it's a nice show =) Eragon is cutee.

waited for weiqiang to meet us for movies cos he cldnt make it for lunch. and yea, he's TALL. or perhaps, everyone looks TALL to me. haas. how pathetic. seeing e size everyone is in, makes me so motivated to lose wt! but i tink i ate more than ever today. we've been eating like nonstop! lols. TMR's a WORKOUT day! woo!

after movies, everyone went back leavin me, jocelyn and weiqiang to have dinner. off we went to JOCELYN'S HK CAFE at cineleisure. and know what. its e same one at kovan! CHEY! haas. we shared peanut thick toast, bo luo bun and e mango desert. SINFUL! lala/as.. anyways, i had so much fun! with jocelyn ard, i guess e place will nv be too quiet. which is GREAT!
and home we go after tt. she alighted at amk. which leaves me and wq. its funny how near we live by each other and yet these 4 yrs, i've not seen him b4. lols. oh ya. HE'S A GENTLEMAN for sending me home. =) thankks dudde!

i lovee you, ppl! lookin forward to e next gathering!

2006-12-11T05:25:00.000-08:00

YAY! mummy agreed! and we're flyin off to HONGKONG next tues. im not goin alone with ah yi and family anymore! i noe im big enough but jus at e thought of leavin behind mum, dad and baby makes me feel so uneasy. i dont wna be at another place and have my heart still with them. i wna enjoy! and im gna do jus tt those few days! DISNEYLAND! weee`s~

maids are such a nuisance. they cause nth but trouble. oh well, lift ur butt of e chair and get ur hands and legs moving! do e work urself to save from all e problems. i've nv like maids ever since we hired or rather CHANGED 4 maids in 3 mth! jus imagine. WTH. you come here to work not to have any say in any other things. if being e employer doesnt give e advantage of ordering u to do work, what makes us e employer?! gosh.. e world is turning upside down. =/

i noe i sound silly. but i miss you badly. yes, i noe even if we cant be tt loving couple tt makes everyone green in e eye, we can still be e best buddies like before. u said tt, but u're not doin it! how ironic can u be. i dont like this. x) i hope u're havin fun at china now. till now, u'll always be e one i have in my heart.

2006-12-08T06:20:00.000-08:00

wow! i cant wait for next wednesday! i miss my primary sch peeps! zhi ru! if u're readin, dont scream! hahas =) i guess i must be real honoured to be called up by her, cos she has been missin in action for like dont noe how many hundred million years! i wonder how does she look like now.. SHE'S KEEPIN ME IN SUSPENSE! how badd! lols

as like e first 2 days, i went for morning workouts again. today for YOGA, BODY COMBAT and initially, INTRO STEP but e auntie i met, asked me to join her for STRENGTH CYCLING. (= i didnt noe yoga can make one sweat! and im serious! i tink my whole shirt is wet after jus abt half an hour. lols. but its so cool! i wna learn to FLOAT! x)
wow! can u imagine, a pregnant lady teachin combat? lifting barbells, doin weights, doin cycling! gosh! she's simply amazing! superr fit! i wna be like her! ELIZABETH. tt's e instructor. she's gorgeous! went for 2.4km rum during e half hour interval before cycle. if only i can withstand temptations of food! i'd simply shed all e extra pound! but too bad i cant. =/
oh man! cycling makes me screamm! PAINFUL! hahas. =x seriously, its so painful laa. if u noe wad im talkin abt, hurr hurr. i hope i dont suffer from internal injuries man.

its 2 more weeks to christmas. not really so excited though cos there's no hot parties to attend. haas. but jus tinkin of e food and more food! awwws! hahas. seee! wad a glutton i am! how to lose weight like tt! tsktskk! =p

2006-12-05T06:33:00.000-08:00

it's another ordinary day today. i feel like such a crap. i tink im practically wasting hell lot of time doin nothing everyday. i feel like my future is a bunch of mess and i seriously cant see e bright future ahead of me. x) i need a breather. i need a shoulder. im feelin lonely when everyone else is attached ard me. i sometimes wonder.. does tt matter? oh well, i guess im such a loser.

talked to brooks online yesterday. he mentioned abt, " why shld ppl stead?" replied.. "cos they dont wna lose their "good friend" to someone else and to hold them by their side all e time." doesnt it sound so true.. my conscious tingled upon seein tt. however, i guess it's much more to tt. to be together means to be in love with e person. if u cant commit urself to him/her, i believe tt aint love. although u are good friends but tt may be jus in e terms of friends and nth else.
aiya.. i tink love is contradicting laa.

i cant help but STILL miss you.

mummy went to pray jus now. then gt this amulet for all of us. from wad she said, im kinda relieved tt i didnt offer to accompany her over. he was so ... accurate la. this kinda thing is not really superstitious jus better to be safe than sorry bahs. alright, so he said i'm hot tempered by nature. i mixed with bad company which results in me wanting to be e "big sister" ? [ which i dont really understand ] he added, "she even dared to talk back and bicker with u all ( parents )" oh man.. guilty conscious =/ okok. i admit. but neither do i wish tt to happen either. they sometimes jus dont, they jus dont understand what im goin through, wad im feeling. there's no one i can turn to. in fact, i tink i've gt no friends..

2006-12-04T03:58:00.000-08:00

woke up at 73o todae. overslept as i was supposed to wake up at 64o. as a result, cldnt go for e 92o class which was BODY COMBAT and INTRO STEP. so i changed my plan i attented HI-LO moves and BODY PUMP. =) im glad i went for it though. it was extremely fun.e hi lo moves was kinda like some dance steps with aerobics. even though was in an air con room, my whole shirt was drenched in sweat. SHIOK! body pump involves e use of bar bells. this e first time im liftin weights. abit embarrassin uh. everyone is like so much older than me and they are havin weights as heavy as like 4 kg on each side? and im only havin 1kg. HAAS =/ nevermind, its my first time.. there'll be a day when i'll become an instructor! YES! WORKIN TO TT DAY.

anyways, i got to know two aunties today. OMG. can u believe it. one is like 48 and e other 5o plus! yet they are so fit and sporty! *APPLAUSE! im gna work and work till 95 yrs old! lols. like wad e instructor joked abt. but one thing abt e place is uh.. i wonder why those women not shy at all eh. they can jus strip in e toilet beside e lockers without goin into e cubicles! i was like so shocked. dont even dare move my eye a bit. x)

perhaps. i should do like wad he said. it's not tt i dont wan u get it. e feelings jus emerged and i jus cant stop it. im not tryin to show attitude when talkin to u. neither do i wna look unhappy. i've nv cried infront of any guys before u noe tt. i cant say wad is it tt made me fall for you but i am sure and very sure of my feelings this time. i shall jus sit and pray tt things will be fine. i wna be e happy girl again!

2006-12-03T06:24:00.000-08:00

args. its so suffocating right now. i guess e ans is kinda obvious. im not forcing myself on you. boy, i'd rather be back to our close buddy r/s. its a fact tt i cant deny tt i've fallen for you however i dont wan to spoil my everyday with this irritating feeling. i wna shout.. shout out to you. to sae tt i love you and i miss u dearly.
this is crasie.

oh yea. will be goin for bodycombat and intro step class tmr. jackie chan will be coming on tues, hence there'll be no class then. i'd better stop feelin depressed , stressed, sian.. or else my weight will be on e trampoline again. i need a drastic weight lose! c'mon baby, do me this favour. x)

ah ma rocks. gave me and lil bro hundred each cosh she won in playin stocks. i think she's even more decisive then mummy la. aiyo. she's one dare devil. haas. wan buy jiu buy. wan sell jiu sell. dont even bother abt wads gna happen next. WAY TO GO!

he's leavin for hongkong tmr. i suppose he'll only be back on thurs or so. awws. this is bad. ["SHI TING!" WAKEUP. STOP DREAMING"] i hope i will. anyways, takecare boy.

2006-12-01T23:53:00.001-08:00

2006-12-01T23:25:00.000-08:00

oh godd! im missin you but im not allowin myself to another disappointment from you. sighh. jus where are you when i needed u most. u love me? boy, stop lyin to urself. stop lyin to me.

2006-12-01T06:15:00.000-08:00

back from netball farewell camp. didnt stay till tmr cosh daddy had to work till late todae and i had to be back to help take care of lil bro. he's so funny! gt this new anklet with bells and he started stampin one foot as he walk. lols.

alrights back to e camp. awwws. cant believe we're gna graduate. its like *frrrooom! and 4 yrs have past. its so weird to be served. hahas. first time during our steamboat/bbq session, food and more food are served continuosly. so bu hao yi si! oh ya! when we were invited down for food, all of them lined up in straight rows infront of e gym and clapped as if we were goin down some red carpet! followin tt, we were all given sth like a garland but without e flowers, instead those decorations for christmas. its sooo sweet! =)
then comes e performance for e nite. first up, e cave man! BRAVOS to e sec1s! they are simply so adorable. my 2 lovely girls, fiona and joanne! i love you! =)
FIONA! u made all of us cry! why did u tear while ur singing, silly. =(
sec2s had dance and sec3s and 4s had combined skit cum dance item.
LYDIA! u rocks! haas. im gna miss her jokes and yea jus everything abt her! she is one person whom everyone will wna grab into their life, for she'll light up ur life without fail.
LIPING! my ex laopo. hahas. she's also one sweet lady. she can be so mad yet someone able to confide in.
VIVIEN! once my pairwork company. we had loads of fun together uh, girl!
SERENE! my lil sis. e next B division vicecap eh! haas.
GERALDINE! e ever sweet girl. her voice will melt ur heart any moment. gentle yet tough on court.
BAOLING! taller than me by a head! hahas
oh well, there are still so many junoirs to name but i dont noe all their names! =/ im sorry! but girls! i'll miss u ppl loads!
EUNICE! my sweetheart who listens to my probs. camwhore partner. e fun we had is indescribable. and we're gna continue with more fun!
ZARINA! be stronger girl! dont get injured again. =)
BRENDA! small beady eyes are her representation. let's get rid of all e cats in e world together! *evil laughter!
COLLEEN! small yet .. omg! dont ever look down on her. she'll make u topple over! she's FIERCE on court!
YIYONG! EMERLINE! PATRICIA! we're gna graduate together. this e first time todae we sat and gossiped on everything under e sun! this is so fun! was talking abt whether our parents allow us to have bf. "dont let e guys take advantage of you", "at e end of e day its e girl tt lose out", "dont luan luan lai", hahas! OMGG! i tink all parents in e world have e same mindset! lols. everyone says e same thing regarding this. im gna miss todae so much.

like always, e farewell performance ended up in everyone cryin. had so many farewell gifts. its so thoughtful of them to make us shirts, bibs, photoframes and miss heng gave everyone necklaces from perlini's silver and miss chung gave all a set of mirror and comb with a $1o RSH voucher. =) tt nite we slept onlie at abt 3? after star gazing at e quardrangle and talkin in e staff lounge. first time sleepin there eh. haas.but cldnt slp la. woke up at ard 72o after brenda. guess wad! my 2 piggy friends, EUNICE and ZARINA woke up onlie at 11 when everyone were havin friendly match with kranji sec. hahas!
enjoyed myself thoroughly. im gna miss everyone so much! awwws.

i dont noe wad to believe now.one min u seemed so convincing, yet e next u treat me worse than ur dog. its driving me crasieeee!

why cant some ppl jus mind their own business. *roll eyes!

2006-11-29T06:24:00.000-08:00

wow. pilates class is cool. i nv thought it wld be like tt. hahas. but its fun overall. continue workin hard! 3 months! ABT (abs,butt, thighs) damn refreshing workout! sweat all out. i had so much fun todae at california. haas. too bad tmr got camp till sat le. cant attend e classes.
life is kinda boring without school. ironic how we can be. when we have sch, we'll all be complaining abt e tons of work. but now tt we are SO free.. again we complain but it's of BOREDOM! gosh.

i just have gt so much to say but dont noe where to start. i've gt thousand and one knots entangled in my heart waiting to be detangled. args. i hate this la. yes, i realie treasure u very much as a friend. in fact u're someone i can confide in despite only contact on phone. sounds silly but yea tt's wads really abt. i dont noe why. after ur repeated times of lyin to me i still fall for ur sweet nothings. im sad. i really am. so many questions jus kept flowin into my mind now and then. am i ur scapegoat. am i someone to you who is jus another person. do you even care abt me. i dont like u for ur looks. i jus love e way u are when u are serious, when you joke. but at e end of e dae, i frown. thinkin whether u meant what u said. now, i know u like her. but wad am i suppose to do. i've fallen for u. i dont care wads e consequence of this. i jus noe tt i wan you!
dnomyar!

2006-10-19T08:40:00.000-07:00

oh well. prelims results are back last week.
i did badly. duhs.. forget abt mentionin it.
im determined to score for e o's.
skool ended last THURSDAY 12 october 2oo6!
i cant imagine myself havin spent 4 years in
this skool. how time flies..

miss ching gt everyone this card with a short
letter chained to it. it's realie heartwarming.
i cant help but to have tears welled up in my
eyes. though as many have said. our class may
not be as united as any, one may have seen,
i defintely have feelings engraved in it.
nonetheless its at least 2 yrs of friendship.
grudges are to be forgotten.
c'mon! i wna leave e skool HAPPILY!
smilee everyonee!

anyway, we had practical todae. GOD!
can u imagine how asthetic we were when we
saw e apparatus?! PENDULUM! hahas!
it may be a blessin but a disaster in another then.
as all e tables and graphs are well plotted. marks wld
be allocated elsewhere. nevertheless, i thank god for
e .. hmm how shall i put it.
the well prepared question? WHATEVER. hahas =)

after this, in another 18 days or so,
ther BIG Os will be arriving. happy or sad?
jus wished tt it'd be over soon and e results wld
be satisfying =)

GOOD LUCK TO SHI TING`!

2006-10-03T01:45:00.000-07:00

yeaa! finally like after 1o thousand years
i passed ENGLISH! sounds pathetic uh
but its true laa. ever since sec 3. to get a
passin mark is like tryin to fly.
anyways, i gt 34/5o for paper1 and
28/5o for paper2. tt's sth alrights! (=

skool aint anythin exciting these few days.
but i realie enjoyed recess now. no more
canteen for us; kham, syqin and me.
cosh syqin's fasting and we all accompanied
her. hahas. or perhaps its jus in skool.. =/
ok. back here. yeaa its so cool cosh we
spent e whole period tokin. practically
everythin under e ceiling! hahas.
i realiee love e both of them to bits!

`.GIRLS! thanks for everything. i'd seriously
miss e both of u after we leave skool.
nevertheless im sure our friendship wld be
strong enough to withstand anythin.
distance aint an obstacle rite! *cheers!

no remedial today cosh miss gan has gt lots
of marking tt are yet to be done. a blessing in
disguise bahs. im so TIRED!
but i wonder why i can never slp when i get
home. instead i've been eating non-stop.
onlie now tt i finally stop to blog. hahas
but i guess 2 hrs later will be dinner le!
jus imaginee.
i hate exams! i hate stayin at home!
there are lots of stuff which can keep me
occupied but i jus cant seem to stop walkin
ard and findin things to eat. im like at my
heaviest now. jus lookin at e scale makes me
freak out, however i jus cant keep it under
control ! args! this is so infuriating..
i've never expected myself to gain so much
since last year's incident. yeaa anorexic sucks
but again, at least i didnt have to worry abt
being FAT!

oh well, mayb ..
i guess ..
i hope ..
i can ..
be more disciplinee to take charge of my diet
hahas! provided tt i get rid of e stress first!
STRESS=BINGE! x=

`..im contented with wad i have in life
frens care. family concern.
warmth and love i lack no one.
if i'd have to give up sth. it defintely
wldnt be any of them. i lovee you!

2006-09-30T08:36:00.000-07:00

SIGH.
totally not wad i expected.
im disappointed once again
first its that. now its this.
even e strongest soul wldnt be
able to take it anymore i guess.

most of e papers have been given
back. except fer eng p1 and humanities
i cant imagine wad will e result be like.
i flunked amaths as usual. but dont noe
why i was reali disappointed in myself
this time round. i did studie!
i reali did! why is it tt ppl can improve
so much whereas im still stuck right
deep in e hole! i jus cant take this down.
=/
also! i scored a b4 and b3 for emaths and
sub-sci respectively. this is e last thing i
ever tot i wld score. b4 for emaths?!
god, wad e hell was i doin. i cld onlie see
As for this sub! and SUB-SCI!
why in e hell did i drop PURE! its to get
an A! but now?!
and we are onliee doin skool paper.
i realie dont noe wads gna happen in o's

i promise myself im realie gna work hard
real hard. i dont wna see myself cry with
e results in my hand like it happened in p6
agains. no way is it repeatin itself. NO!

my dearest kor is gna give me tuition on
chem starting next week. despite his tight
schedule he's willing to help me. im reali
glad. *thankyou so much!
im realie aimin for 14 points and less!

i tink i shld realie be grateful tt ma parents
arent in e bit of reprimanding me.
but i jus felt so bad tt i let them down.
i hope wad happened in p6 is gna be e first
and e last time. history's not gna repeat itself
ever again. PLEASE!

todae's kham's birthdae party.
cldnt stay long. left at 91o. even b4 she
cut her cake. felt realie bad. sorrys dearie!
but mum and dad had been waiting for like
2hours fer me already. so jus had to leave.

can u imagine. on her invitation card she
wrote it starts at 5 and us; me, zq,es and andrew
we reached at 7 and i tot oh no! sure late le.
but who noes. no one is even there yet.
and! e last grp of ppl came at 9! WOW.
how nicee. ohmygod. this is like so not nice laa
no time management at all?
oh well, anyways. this sweetheart of mine
looked absolutely gorgeous tonight!
with her hair done. make up on and a black dress,
she looks jus like a princess without e tiara. =)

i guess ups and downs do happen in life.
without e obstacles we'll nv grow up.
let it jus be a motivation to drive us further!
jus like this ger, her prince charmin came last
min! she was so happy. haas!
yeaa. MIRACLES DO HAPPEN!
i will and i can!

2006-09-27T06:55:00.000-07:00

finally, prelims are over.
is tt sth worth celebrating
or shld i remain immune.
i dont noe either.
in abt a mth's time, e big O
will be arriving. tt's e end of
ma 4 years in secondary.
WOW!
= realie dont noe wad to comment
of it.

will onlie noe e marks for our papers tmr.
mr chandramohan jus refused to give us
back e physics paper. boo.
tt's not e worse though. *sighs..
doubt anyone of us had thought of
wad he wld sae.. "all of u didnt do as
expected. onlie 1 had an A."
can you even imagine tt.
i was stunned.
didnt noe wad to tink.
thousand and one thoughts rushed into me

i thought e paper was do-able.
i thought i cld at least score an A2.
but now,
wad is this..
*sighs..

and miss ching had to add fuel to e fire.
she jus had to..
arghs..
there she goes, with arms around ma shoulders
"shi ting, are you ok. ur grades dropped badly
this time. esp emaths. chem still not so bad. is
anything happenin at home. or has it to do with
matters of e heart."
me, "huhs. no? nth happened. realie."
"u dropped by at least 2/3 grades. got to
buck up."
=/
one after another..
i tot i made it.
i tot i worked real hard for it.
i tot mayb i cld go for e 3mths jc course.
everything was jus so unexpected.

im not gna be demoralized by you!(marks)
im gna work extra hard now.
i seriously will. to prove myself.
to prove ma ability.
yes i can!

2006-09-23T07:59:00.000-07:00

prelims are ending soon.
cant believe ma eyes.
one more sub to go.
AMATHS!!!
oh god. all i pray for now
is to pass. jus pass!
i dont yearn for flyin colours. =/

mrs john says whoever tt fails,
is gna be kept back during e two weeks
self study slot, EVERYDAY! o.O
i dont wan tt.. *sighs-

so far, all e paper have been quite do-able.
i hope i've made e right choice in droppin
pure sci. all e best to me in gettin an A!
woo-hOo!

i realie wna prove it big.
prove it right this time
i shall aim high and get it jus right.
im gna create miracles.
jus wait.
look out for me!

start muggin right after prelims`..

2006-09-14T21:56:00.000-07:00

days are gone.
weeks have past
life has become its old self again
without ur msggs
ur sweet talkings

it was rather uneasy initially
followin with tears and sorrows
but mayb u made me grow up
somehow or rather..
realisation aint too late now
to be strong and alone
to brave e wind and storm.

thanks for being there once for me
for bringing shine to my world
giving me e feeling of being loved
im realie glad
realie happy
you made my life worthwhile

for now,
though im left all alone
i'll stay joyful.
happiness are short term
but memories are forever.

.to you`..

2006-08-26T07:46:00.001-07:00

从未想过会有那么一天
从前的你，
是多么温柔，
多么体贴
你让我享受到童话人物的幸福快乐

“永远”这两个字
是否真的存在
真的会发生
在我脑海里，曾不敢渴望过。

baby,是你让我的生命
又一次出现了彩虹
又一次对自己有了信心
但也是狠心的你
再一次把我完美的梦
一针把它一个一个给刺破

伤心，痛心，无法形容的感觉
无时无刻浮现在我眼前
你到底还爱我吗
多么想问你这句话

这次，我真的受伤了。